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lright, this has been
dragging on for three years now! I really am not good at writing about
myself so forgive the brevity of this section. Let us begin with a
profound and remarkable sigh:
Me, myself, and I. Three people everyone should be acquainted with ;)
Personality? Depends on the season really... No, honestly. If you happen
to meet me during the summer (or any holiday period) you will probably
find me brimming with life and wonder why I am so cheery all the time. I
try to carry on that same exultant buoyancy into the winter months, alas
somewhere along the way we part company. Although I am at my most prolific
stage when the stress is over the top and I have thrice the work than I
have time, I cannot say the same for my nerves. Something you should never
ever do when I am late, rushing for a deadline, enveloped by a semi-circle
of open books, notes and mad diagrams spreading out in all dimensions, or
talking to myself as if I am in the middle of something is to poke me to
ask if I have a minute, get in my way, engage in some nonsensical and
utterly pointless discussion/conversation/monologue, make a silly joke or
keep standing above my head. The list may be expanded analogously in
either direction. Basically anything that causes me to lose my grip on
whatever revelation I thought I was having at the moment and interrupt the
flow of thought or the ticking clock. Nonetheless, I think it would be
just to say that I keep a vivacious, spirited attitude even during very
stressed and strenuous times.
I guess my core problem is having too much energy and curiosity for one
person. I have interests spanning over an unduly broad spectrum in so many
different fields and like seeing people enjoy life that I end up
over-filling my schedule, making too many promises and undertaking a lot
of responsibilities - usually involving a leading or organizing role. I
typically start numerous projects simultaneously. In fact, I have to do a
lot of things at once or none gets done. I always finish whatever task I
assume - but sometimes I end und up finishing myself too.
As I've said already, I am intrigued by so many different things in life
that I really hate missing an opportunity to check out something I might
take pleasure in and benefit from. I love to experiment with novel ideas
and concepts. So I guess it would be safe to say that I try to be open to
new experiences.
It is also true that I ask a lot of questions (or as people who know me in
real life say: waaaaay too many questions), but next time you get
irritated by my incessant inquiring please know that I am not asking for
the sake of asking or just to appear involved. Chances (greatly) are I am
asking out of genuine curiosity, trying to learn how things fit together
or how the thing in my hand really functions. If I am thorough in my
questioning and work, it is probably not because I want to be better than
everyone else or dazzle the world of spectators with brilliance. Most
likely I am just trying to answer my own questions and satisfy my
insatiable curiosity. Although, I have to admit I like to excel in what I
do. I don't mind putting in the hours because more often than not I want
to do what I am doing.
Though I am not garrulous, you may have guessed by now that when I am in a
tongue-in-cheek mood (like now), I can be quite talkative. Objective logic
dictates that I am at times incongruous: I tend to insert too many
side-sentences and asides into sentences -
especially when I am busy with more than one assignment and overflowing
with ideas for all. Possibly the one thing I don't mind bragging about: I
am very good at making links between seemingly totally unrelated subjects.
That may be why I sometimes shift from one idea to another in mid-sentence
and then switch back to the first project. If I am in a brainstorming
mode, I tend to forget that unspoken thoughts are not transparent and that
people don't have access to the insides of my mind. That is why you
should, as a rule, not place your trust in first drafts from me. That is
also why I so greatly appreciate people who take the time to go over my
sketches, point out what I left back in my head and what invaded the
centre another concept's territory. Basically you could say I need someone
to "tie me down to earth" as dear Talia once so rightfully pointed out.
What I hate: Hmm, quite a long list I assume. But petty, small-minded
people making small (and undue) economies and meanly scheming for equally
small victories tops the list. Lazy and stupid people follow that lead.
People full of themselves, their achievements and empty boasts are right
behind on the chase. And: Slow-walkers getting in the way in a hectic day.
I am very open with my opinions and emotions; if something starts to annoy
me and if I think it can be amended I would not hesitate to say before the
problem escalates. And I have this dense belief that one might actually
change people for the better. But unfortunately because I hate wounding
someone, I at times voice my frustration so tactfully and diplomatically
that people fail to take the cue before it is too late. I am prone to
dramatic displays of anger (although I have never seen it myself, people
say I'm very scary when furious) but these are usually ephemeral. I don't
hold grudges or drag resentment and venomous loathing with me through
life. My anger (or more likely: irritation) manifests itself in quick but
definitive bursts.
So all in all I guess I try to sail through my days with joy and see
beauty in every moment - although I must say air pollution makes that very
hard these days! |
Turkish
